Alcoholism And Healing

Jeffrey showed up at one of my 5-Day Inner Bondingfeel the love that is always within and around us - the
Intensives to deal with his alcoholism and resultinglove that is our Source.
relationship problems. His past two marriages hadAs a result of learning and practicing the 6-Step Inner
ended in messy divorces. His business was fallingBonding process and connecting with himself and his
apart. Yet in the face of all of this, Jeffrey could not orspiritual Guidance, Jeffrey no longer wanted to drink.
would not stop drinking.The alcohol was filling up the inner emptiness caused
Two things were immediately apparent in my firstby his self-abandonment and disconnection from his
session with Jeffrey. First, he had completelySource. He left the Intensive with no desire to drink.
abandoned himself, making others responsible for hisJeffrey has been alcohol-free for many years now.
self-worth. Due to his unwillingness to take responsibilityRachael had been struggling with her alcoholism for 19
for his own feelings, he was constantly pulling othersyears before attending an Inner Bonding Intensive.
for approval with his "niceness." His inauthenticWhile she had a strong belief in God, she had never
saccharine niceness felt like sticky glue trying to oozefelt a deep and personal connection with God. Like
its way into having control over getting others'Jeffrey, she had used alcohol to fill the emptiness and
approval. Needless to say, it was not working for him.avoid the pain that came from her own
Second, he had no spiritual connection, no Source toself-abandonment and disconnection from her Source.
turn to for love, comfort and guidance. As anyoneRachael was constantly judging herself as inadequate.
who has attended AA knows, being able to turn to aUntil the Intensive, she had believed that her pain was
spiritual Source is essential for healing. The support ofbeing caused by others' behavior towards her - others'
the people within the program can help sustainjudgments of her. At the Intensive, she discovered that
abstinence, but true healing comes from the innershe was not a victim - that her pain was being caused
spiritual connection.by ignoring her feelings and judging herself, as well as
No one had ever confronted Jeffrey with how muchby not speaking up for herself with her husband and
they were put off by his controlling niceness. Theyfamily.
would just go away, leaving him to wonder what heAs Rachael learned and practiced the Inner Bonding
had done wrong. At first, when the Intensiveprocess, she started to attend to her own feelings and
participants told Jeffrey about feeling pulled at formake the connection between her pain and her
approval, he felt hurt. But within the loving energy ofself-judgments. She also started speaking up for
the Intensive, he was soon able to open to learningherself. As she opened her heart to her Source, to her
about the gift they were offering him. He was able tofeelings, and to the beautiful essence within her, she
see that, because he was abandoning himself bydiscovered a joy that she had never felt in her life. The
ignoring his feelings and judging himself, he was handinginner emptiness and anxiety that had been her
others responsibility for his feelings of worth.constant companions were gone. Gone too was her
Once Jeffrey opened to how alone he felt insidedesire to drink.
when he abandoned himself, he was able to move intoAddictions are caused by self-abandonment - by
compassion rather than judgment for his feelings. Asignoring your feelings, by judging yourself, and by
his heart open to compassion for himself, he began toclosing your heart to your Source. They can be healed.