Living With an Alcoholic Spouse

I have been married for almost fifteen years to whatThis went on for about five years, then one day I
was once a lovely young lady, 8 years my junior. Wecame home and she was not there. Neighbors had
had a healthy, happy baby boy during our first year ofstopped by an she had been very lethargic and yellow
marriage. I landed a good paying job with greatin color throughout her eyes and face. They had taken
benefits and I was able to pay all the bills and still haveher to the hospital, partially against her wishes, but by
money left over at the end of the month to save for adoing so they had saved her life...on that day.
home.The news she got that day was that she was
Everything seemed to good to be true, since we weresuffering from liver failure. Her options were clearly
both surprised that we were even married to eachspelled out for her: Quit drinking, or die. Well, that, and
other. Everything happened so fast. Our engagementstay clean for 6 months, get picked up by a transplant
found us traveling here and there on a whim. Weteam, get a liver transplant when one becomes
would just jump in the car and go wherever it was weavailable and live a normal healthy life afterward.
would go to. We mainly took day trips, but sometimesRight? Too easy? Of course....
we might stay overnight. We were in love, no doubt.My wife continued to drink, and does to this very
Even when she found out she was pregnant we stillevening as I sit here and type this. She never stopped,
found the time to get our sightseeing in, and after oureven after being told she had options. We have a
son was born we were quick to take him along.handsome, wonderfully smart 15 year old son who she
Then it happened. Slowly at first, then it became morewill not put down the beer for. What parent would
noticeable. Money came up missing from bankchoose alcohol in place of seeing their child graduate,
accounts and from around the house. My son's piggygo to college? Get married? Have children? I cannot
bank was even lightened and at first I suspected thatunderstand why or how she can be so selfish as she
a close family member was taking advantage ofdrinks herself nearer and nearer to death.
access to our home while babysitting our son. ThisShe has told me in the past few days that she is
was soon cleared up after talking to bank employeesafraid to die. She has admitted to me that she made
who confirmed that it was actually my wife who hadmistakes in her decisions. She has admitted to me that
been withdrawing funds at a record pace with nothingshe wants to see our son graduate and progress
to show for it.through his life. She has told me she knows she will not
My investigation went on to discover ATMbe around to do so.
withdrawals, out of sequence checks being written forHow can I feel sorry for her? How can I show
"cash" and more missing money from around thesympathy for someone who has given up on herself
house. My coin collections had disappeared, and myand has chosen to continue drinking alcohol instead of
son's collection of "state quarters" assembled by hischoosing to be a parent for her son? How can I
great grandmother had vanished. I feared the worstcontinue to love someone who is not the woman I
because everything pointed to the possibility that mymarried, but instead is a drunken shell of her former
wife had some sort of drug problem. She deniedself?
removing any checks, "state quarters" or any of myI live with verbal and mental abuse every day. I live on
coin collections for her own use. I called pawn shopslimited means as I have been laid off for over a year
only to find that the coins had been sold and therefrom my machinist job where I made automobile parts.
was no way to get them back. I was devastated andI refuse to leave without my son but I cannot leave him
did not know where to turn.in the care of someone as unstable and unpredictable
I immediately began speaking with her parents, ofas her.
which I had a good relationship with. They agreed toMy son understands completely what she is doing to
back me 100% if it became apparent that theirherself. He also understands I am unable to finance our
daughter was in fact suffering from some sort ofescape from this misery, just yet. I know we need to
addiction. I did discover some abuse of pain pills, but theget out of this household and strike forward on our
main addiction was to alcohol. Evil alcohol. It'll changeown. I know it won't be easy, but it will be necessary.
the person you thought you fell in love with, let me tellAlcoholism is a miserable life for those who suffer.
you.Families of alcoholics suffer as well. Support is out
After I discovered that my wife was addicted tothere for us all, alcoholics and the families of alcoholics.
alcohol, she reacted as if she was "relieved" that I nowI chose the services of Alcoholics Anonymous, first. I
knew her problem and began drinking profusely. Iwas steered towards Ala-Teen for my son and I to
estimate that she spent between $300-$500 dollars ago talk with people who are going through similar
month on beer, and an unknown amount accessingsituations at home.
pain pills from her friends at work. I wanted to help herIt does not help to hide when you realize you are living
get help to fight off the urge to destroy herself, butwith a family member who is addicted to alcohol, or
she was blinded by her drinking and didn't care whodrugs. You must try to get them help, but you must
she hurt to get her beer.also realize you are not at fault. Making decisions with
She continued to lie, manipulate, steal, coerce anda level head is paramount in this scenario. Seek out
demand ways for people to get her beer. It got to thecounseling services for yourself and other family
point I had to sleep with my pants on so I could knowmembers if need be to understand what the addiction
where my wallet was at overnight. The days ofis about and how you can help the addict at home.
leaving my spare change on the dresser were longYou will be glad you did something, before it's too late.
gone at this time.