Living with an alcoholic – Shame

If you live with an alcoholic you will almost certainly feelnever know a thing about it.  Or at least that was the
shame.  Some people will experience it to a very highplan
level, others will experience it much less so but almost 
everyone who lives, or has lived, with an alcoholicBut!  This period was not supposed to last this long. 
experiences it to some degree.  You will probably feelIt was just supposed to be a temporary thing till he got
anxious that people will discover your secret, that theyover his disappointment, his depression, the stress at
will judge you and, inevitably, will find you unacceptablework, the whatever.  Now it seems to have become
to be around decent people.the pattern of your life and you have somehow been
 given the role of the person who keeps the secret. 
Seeing it written down like that it probably seemsYou are the one who has to make the excuses to
stupid.  How could anyone feel that.  However as Iyour friends who invite you to parties, or meals at their
have heard some of my clients say many, many timeshouse (No point going you know he will just get drunk
"Intellectually and logically I know that these thoughtsand start an argument - again).  You are the one who
are stupid, but….".  And it is a really big but!  Nohas to phone his mother and lie about why he hasn't
amount of reassurance takes away that shame. visited.  You are the one who has to keep people
Sure it works at the time, maybe for a whole day thenfrom visiting your home unannounced in case he is
– but!drunk – again!  You are the one who has lost
 touch with your best friends, given up the social times,
When you live with an alcoholic you take on thisbecome increasingly isolated.  Why has this
burden.  He is the man you loved, maybe you evenhappened?  It is because of the shame of living with
married him.  He has admirable qualities –an alcoholic.
normally.  It is just at the moment things are a bit 
difficult.  He is not normally like this, so you will just hideSo is there anything that you can do about it? Is there
his secret for a while.  No point in making him anxious,anything that you can do to reduce or eliminate the
angry, depressed, (whatever his trigger is) it will justshame entirely?   Yes there are many things that
make him worse.  You know deep down inside thatyou can do to reduce your feelings of shame and rid
some day soon things will change, he will change andyourself of them completely.  We will look at some
everything will be good again.  Till then you will juststrategies that you can use in the second article on
hide the problem so you will both emerge from thisthis topic.
period as if nothing had happened and the world will